Last night as I was trying to fall asleep I wrote the perfect blog post in my head..... now it sgone... ha ha.. I don't know where to start. If I start I might not stop and I don't have time to write right now.. see it's my daughter's 12 birthday and we need to go and sing her awake. But instead of happiness I feel sadness. Actually I hope no-one reads this, maybe I should write this somewhere else where no-one will read it, but that I have it for later...
You know sometimes you want people to know how you are feeling and what's happening in your life and sometimes you feel they will not understand or misunderstand and think you need rescuing. I am not one of those mom's, I call them "supermoms" who have it all together. You know those ones that have 7 children, 3 with disabilities, 4 adopted, homeschooling them all, cooking and cleaning and then they even have published a couple of books already, and they keep up with an excellent blog they are writing... or two... I have no idea how that perfect life is possible.
Now back to my meager blog post. It is a new year... not that it makes any difference to me. Just the date changed on the calendar. I actually have a new calendar, which is kind of cool. But I could never understand the big fuss about a new year... nothing changes, why the big party and fireworks. We drove my son around for new year because he was having a meltdown... he can hear the fireworks but not see them and how is that possible. He loves fireworks, so while one kid was asleep, two watching Shrek, we drove the other around the city looking for fireworks... Maybe I will get fireworks for his birthday.. which is in July and will not make any sense but why only fireworks on new year.
I am just writing here, whatever gets in my head on this day. I just need to get it out of my head so here goes. Maybe I could be one of those SUPERMOMS and write a book. this could be chapter one.
You know sometimes you want people to know how you are feeling and what's happening in your life and sometimes you feel they will not understand or misunderstand and think you need rescuing. I am not one of those mom's, I call them "supermoms" who have it all together. You know those ones that have 7 children, 3 with disabilities, 4 adopted, homeschooling them all, cooking and cleaning and then they even have published a couple of books already, and they keep up with an excellent blog they are writing... or two... I have no idea how that perfect life is possible.
Now back to my meager blog post. It is a new year... not that it makes any difference to me. Just the date changed on the calendar. I actually have a new calendar, which is kind of cool. But I could never understand the big fuss about a new year... nothing changes, why the big party and fireworks. We drove my son around for new year because he was having a meltdown... he can hear the fireworks but not see them and how is that possible. He loves fireworks, so while one kid was asleep, two watching Shrek, we drove the other around the city looking for fireworks... Maybe I will get fireworks for his birthday.. which is in July and will not make any sense but why only fireworks on new year.
I am just writing here, whatever gets in my head on this day. I just need to get it out of my head so here goes. Maybe I could be one of those SUPERMOMS and write a book. this could be chapter one.
I have been listening to this song over and over again for the last couple of months. It brings me that Peace I am craving . It keeps me afloat.
Well we will soon start our second semester of school. Yet again I am on my own schedule here...
